This Year I'll Try Not To Think Too Much. This Year I'll Stand Up For Myself. This Year I'll Live Like I've Never Lived Before

Being home has been fantastic. I've hung out with friends pretty much every night and have been making the best of my time here. Being home is weird in ways. So many memories. So many "Oh that's where" "Oh hey!" "I remember that!" kind of moments while I'm cruising around. But anyway. None of that is important. What is important is that this year is coming to an end that calls for an end of the year list so here we go. I will only discuss the albums released this year though. This post started on the 25th but I didn't finish it until today, the 30th.

TOP 5 EP's OF 2009

5. Straighten Things Out-I Think We Better Split Up

I've been a big fanboy of these guys since I got into them the summer before my senior year of high school. Their song "My Daily Wreck" ruled my Summer of 06. What was great about this EP is that I didn't get sick of it because, well...it was only 5 songs. Their previous effort was 10+ songs of super fast skate punk and while yes, I LOVE that, they didn't change up song structure enough to keep me interested. This EP gives you a slow, mid-paced, and of course, fast melodic skate punk.

Favorite song: Call This Song As You Wish

4. Transit-Stay Home

While yes, I did enjoy Mutiny! by Set Your Goals, I never really took it seriously. This whole super positive pop punk/hardcore seems to be making a little push these days and I really can't think of a band doing it better than Transit. I had only heard 1 or 2 songs by Transit prior to listening to this and this EP is a great representation of their sound and what is to come of the band. I couldn't be more excited for the full length.

Favorite Song: Stay Home

3. The Lawrence Arms-Butt Sweat and Tears

The Lawrence Arms have been around for a long time and I've for some reason neglected them. I had a couple of their albums in mid/late high school but seemed to be turned off by the vocals. That's youth? Well I listened to The Greatest Story Ever Told in August/Septemeber and it went down as one of my all time favorite albums SO as a result of that, I was heavily anticipating their EP. It seems to pick up right where it left off with TGET. From what I've heard, The Lawrence Arms have this great way of structuring their work. It's like everything comes full circle in the end. In a way, even though it's only 5 songs, you feel so completely satisfied and complete with the EP because with just the 5 songs they put out, you feel like you listened to a full length.

Favorite Song: Them Angels Be Talkin'

2. Menzingers-Hold On Dodge

People on the Org went fucking nuts when this came out back in June. I was stuck in a big Descendents phase and had no more room in my rotation so I didn't end up getting this until a month ago. Incredible. Very fun, anthemic, pop punk with some gruff vocals. Not that any of the other bands listed don't describe this, but listening to the Menzingers is what kind of defines my love of punk rock. Sing along hooks, passionate vocals, and simple melodies that stay stuck in your head for weeks. I can't wait till I'm arm and arm with a complete stranger screaming my lungs out to Sunday Morning or Kentucky Gentlemen.

Favorite Song: Sunday Morning

1. A Wilhelm Scream-A Wilhelm Scream

It's not every day where you hear something so good that it makes you...angry. A Wilhelm Scream has made an impact on my life that's hard for even ME to fully comprehend. From start to finish, this EP absolutely rips. Fun Time is one of my particular favorites on the EP. Why? Well with Career Suicide being nothing but a "lets make this as fast as possible" album, we lost that 1 maybe 2 slow songs that they would throw onto their albums. Fun Time is no life changing song, but it's got a chorus that will have you singing for days. Even with the addition of Mike Suppina's shredding skills, Trevor is still very present with his melodic tapping in most of the EP. Bri is defying the laws of punk rock bass players once again, Nuno's vocals are as good as they've ever been, and the drummer(who seems to go un noticed for as amazing as he is) sounds better than he ever has.

Favorite Song: Skid Rock


TOP 5 FULL LENGTHS OF 2009

5. David Bazan-Curse Your Branches
My love for Pedro the Lion and David Bazan has been expressed many times on this blog. His story telling lyrics and great vocal range made me fall in love with him once again. While I don't particularly like the happier songs, the flow of the album can not be denied. Possibly the best part of it is how it ends with such a chilling vibe. It leaves you with your breath still held and I think it's the little things like that that make albums art.

Favorite Song: Curse Your Branches

4. Heartsounds-Until We Surrender

Yet another band that I took time to thoroughly discuss on this blog some time ago. Heartsounds came about earlier this year and got nothing but great responses. It seemed like they were just a huge sigh of relief with all the folk punk singers or org core bands coming out non stop. Very melodic skate punk with awesome guy/girl duo vocals. I think after first listen you might say that all the songs sounds the same, but if given time, you can see that each song has it's own identity. They have a great way of switching up tempos and spreading out the vocals well and had this come out earlier this decade, I'm sure it would be looked at as one of the classic skate punk albums of the era.

Favorite Song: Slave To A Heart That Strays

3. Strike Anywhere-Iront Front

Strike Anywhere is my best friends 2nd or 3rd favorite band so it's always been kind of HIS band that I've just casually listened to. I've really enjoyed some of their songs in the past, but never got too into any of their full lengths. Well finally, they have won me over with Iron Front. My thought on their albums were much the same of my thoughts on Good Riddance albums. Good songs, not so good album. I felt that this release was just so in your face that it forced you to pay attention to listen to each and every single song. Funny thing is that I know of a few Strike Anywhere fans that completely disagree with me. To each their own, right?

Favorite Song: I'm Your Opposite Number

2. Thrice-Beggars

It's hard to start with how long and deep my relationship with Thrice has been. Not once have they released the same album and not once has it been a bad change. But I believe of all the changes, this was the most drastic. The guitars sound so raw and a lot less slick than anything they've done before. Songs seem to be more bass dependent rather than guitar. Dustins voice needs no explanation. He's been hitting any note he desired for a long time now. I told myself when it leaked in July that I would hold out till October to listen to it so I would get the classic "Thrice in the fall" effect and that's exactly what I got. The album flows beautifully and has about a handful of songs that I could understand anyone to label their favorite song.

Favorite Song: Circles

1. Propagandhi-Supporting Caste

While I've never been a huge fan, Propagandhi is and has been one of the most important bands in punk rock since the 90's. My history with them is a lot like Strike Anywhere except I never really got a chance to thoroughly listen to their albums. So when I heard they were coming out with a new album, I was just interested rather than out of my mind excited. Well after seeing the org and my friends rave like I've never seen rave about an album, I knew I had to listen to it. I can personally guarantee you that the first two songs of this album will have your jaw dropped the entire time. My jaw was dropped for a number of reasons. Some of it was the low tuned, thrashy, melodic guitars. Some of it was Todd and Chris harmonizing together. But I think what made my jaw drop so much was the fact that the last album of Propagandhi I had listened to was Today's Empires, Tomorrow's Ashes. The difference between the two albums are significantly different and I just didn't see the intensity of Night Letters and Supporting Caste coming at me. They're so pissed! The intensity. The seriousness! Of all the albums I listened to this semester, this was the one that stayed in my rotation the longest. I knew when I listened to it that it would easily be the best thing released this year and I was correct. Nearly every song on the album is just mind blowing and I don't care if fucking Maroon 5 is your favorite band, you need to give this a listen. One of the great things about legendary bands like Propagandhi releasing new work is that you know fans all over the world will be listening to it at the same time as you. And knowing that I got to enjoy this classic along with the millions of their fans all over the world is pretty amazing.

Favorite Song: Potemkin City Limits


TOP 10 FULL LENGTHS THAT I JUST LISTENED TO THIS YEAR

1. The Descendents-I Don't Want To Grow Up
2. The Lawrence Arms-The Greatest Story Ever Told
3. Joey Cape-Home
4. The Descendents-Everything Sucks
5. Alkaline Trio-God Dammit
6. The Descendents-Cool To Be You
7. Hot Water Music-Caution
8. Broadway Calls-Broadway Calls
9. The Descendents-Milo Goes To College
10. Rehasher-Off Key Melodies

TOP 15 SONGS RELEASED THIS YEAR

1. Hit The Switch-The Everfading Afterglow
2. The Menzingers-Sunday Morning
3. Thrice-Circles
4. Propagandhi-Potemkin City Limits
4a. A Wilhelm Scream-Skid Rock
5. Thrice-In Exile
6. Polar Bear Club-One Hit Back
7. Heartsounds-Slave To A Heart That Strays
8. Heartsounds-Our Last Hope
9. Hit The Switch-Last Light
10. Thrice-Beggars
11. Propagandhi-Supporting Caste
12. Propagandhi-Night Letters
13. A Wilhelm Scream-Fun Time
14. Strike Anywhere-I'm Your Opposite Number
15. Transit-Stay Home

TOP 15 SONGS RELEASED NOT THIS YEAR:

1. Smoking Popes-Megan
2. The Lawrence Arms-The Ramblin Boys Of Pleasure
3. Descendents-In Love This Way
4. Hot Water Music-You Can Take The Boy Out Of Bradenton
5. Hot Water Music-Wayfarer
6. Joey Cape-Who We've Become
7. Descendents-Silly Girll
8. Smoke Or Fire-Culture As Given
9. The Lawrence Arms-The Revisionist
10. The Lawrence Arms-On With The Show
11. Alkaline Trio-Cringe
12. Rehasher-Sinking
13. Descendents-Suburban Home
14. Descendents-Sick Of Me
15. Broadway Calls-Bad Intentions

This was tough. Most of the list could easily change after #2 or #3. I left out a lot of Strike Anywhere, Propagandhi, Swellers, Lawrences Arms, Broadway Calls. I feel like this list makes it seem as if I don't care about such songs as San Francisco or Back To Oregon, or Chapter 13 etc etc.

Band/Album of the year goes to...



The Descendents-I Don't Want To Grow Up

Christmas 08 was some up and down times for me. I was getting over a disaster of a relationship and stressing about auditioning to schools. But on Christmas, my older brother Roy decided to get me "Everything Sucks" by the Descendents. When I opened it the gift, I just kind of laughed to myself and thought, "Really? Everything Sucks? Thank you for reminding me, life." Everything Sucks is considered to be one of the most important albums of the 90's and I could completely understand why. It's incredible. I had always known the Descendents were a huge influence on the 90's(even still today) but I had never taken the time to listen to them. Seems to be an on-going problem with me, huh? After falling completely in love with Everything Sucks, I knew that I had to explore more of their music. It was around early summer when I got I Don't Want To Grow Up. At first listen, I struggled to enjoy it due to the poor quality. But once I got past it, I saw what all the hype was about. This album is filled with instant classics that will never be forgotten in punk rock. The poor quality of recording makes the emotion of this album come out just so much more. The A side is filled with tons of immature/frustrated songs while the B side is filled with tons of heart breaking love songs and comes off just...amazing. I'm actually finding it quite difficult to explain. You just really need to listen to it. Along with I Don't Want To Grow Up, I listened to Milo Goes To College and Cool To Be You. Leaving just about 2 more of their albums I need to listen to. So obviously, they were in my rotation most of the year. The Descendents are now one of my all time favorite bands and have had an extremely huge impact on my life. They are one of the most legendary bands of all time for punk music and I Don't Want To Grow Up is one of the albums that I think will be looked at as one of the most important albums in all of punk rock.

Favorite Song: In Love This Way, Silly Girl


So with that all that said, it's time to say goodbye to 2009. The first seconds of 2009 was me taking shots with all my best friends and right after, I remember saying to my friends that this year would be different and that there would be some major changes for me. It's been the best year of my life. This picture is actually a pretty sweet representation of how I lived life through 2009 because it kind of looks like there SHOULD be someone to the left of me because there's so much space. But that's what makes it great. I didn't need anybody. I didn't have anyone holding me down anymore. I lived my life how I wanted. From getting over a girl, auditioning/partying in Austin/College Station/Houston, sneaking into Texas Stadium with Julia and running around the most legendary football field of all time, flying to Baltimore, Providence and New York City to audition, getting into 3/4 schools I auditioned to, getting 1st place in the ensemble competition in Brownsville and the intense practices that came along with it, essentially saying "fuck you" to Mr. Hii, playing guitar at the open mic at Starbucks, going up to Austin just to party, the shows I got to see, the albums that were released, partying with Andy and that whole crowd non stop, really just the massive massive massive massive increase in partying was a great time. Then the summer was great with the parties(getting old. I know), filming the short movie, playing the cover show, hanging out with different girls(hadn't done it in years). Finally saying goodbye to Corpus was weird but I completely embraced it. My times in San Francisco are times that can't be replaced. Living on my own, the PARTIES, the new crowd of great friends I made, Teeya, going to a music conservatory, finally being around people that are as passionate about music as me. Then coming back home to an awesome number of loving friends and family was fantastic. It was hard to be upset in 2009. Really, my biggest problem was trying to find a way to get a certain girl to stop wanting to hang out with me. THAT'S IT. I will be spending my last moments of 2009 with the friends that I've loved for so long and it will be absolutely beautiful to once again, for the I don't know how many years it's been now, to bring in the new year with all them. It's going to be hard to top 2009, but I will approach it with the highest hopes that I can top it. So thank you to everyone helped this be the best year of my life. Even if you had no idea you were doing it for me.

-Raziel

I See Skies Of Blue. Clouds Of White. Bright Blessed Days. Dark Sacred Nights.

It was around the end of November when I was at a party with friends and we were talking about how excited we were that we'd be home the very next month. But what I realized after that in order to get to December 16th, you have to go through December 1st-15th first. My face was very similar to this guys face. Finals means studying, copying, asking people for answers who you don't really like, and just praying that you pass your finals. Finals were really rough and it was just such a pain having to study for everything. Which leads to what I say next. I did straight up BAD in school compared to what I used to be doing. And on top of that, I felt like I had a very weak semester when it comes to guitar playing. One of the big issues has been practice. I'm still practicing but they aren't as focused practices as when I was getting ready for all my auditions. I live so close that it's way too easy to "just practice at home" which never ends up happening. So bad semester education wise and bad semester guitar wise. It's not that anything was particularly hard, I was just being lazy and it definitely caught up with me. But ya know? I'm really glad this all happened. It's a really nice wake up call and while yeah, i'd doubt myself too if I were you, I know that I can get at least a 3.8 GPA. None of the classes I'm taking are too hard and now that I've kind of grown up a little bit, I think it's very possible.

So I have this kind of, sort of, not really, completely really, almost, i'm not too sure, half-girlfriend these days. She's pretty awesome, super relaxed, and kinda looks like Meg Ryan. She knows me pretty well so she was searching through her ipod to find something we both will enjoy waking up to in the morning. Obviously she had trouble with this. Well the last thing she said to me that night was how I'm going to love what we wake up to. Eyes shut. Eyes open right at 8am because one of the most classic songs came on, "What A Wonderful World" by Louis Armstrong. Imagine being as happy as I am these days, knowing you were going to be home soon, waking up next to a good looking female, being able to see that the SF weather is chilly and rainy, and hearing that song come on. If there is a heavan, it would always start with that. I don't know if it had to do with that, but I had the absolute best performance later in that day. It was for my evaluations and that's where all the guitar faculty "evaluates" your playing. Not once this semester have I put together a performance I enjoyed except for that one. So maybe fun time and Louis Armstrong is what I need before every performance? I haven't done it quite yet, but I'm going to pick up meditation and maybe a bit of buddhism. I'm far too cynical about my playing and it consistently brings my playing down. So hopefully all this will give me a clear head.

I leave to Corpus Christi tomorrow. It will be glorious to be with old friends and family again, drive around the city cutting people off left and right, HEB, whataburger, the beach, BBQ, cheap beer prices, Cowboys games. I'm so fucking excited. But I will miss San Francisco. I'll miss the sounds of the city, music school, the weather, the hobos, the bus rides, all my friends who I saw all day every day. But it's what I need.

The Copyrights-Kids Of The Black Hole

some say it's a black hole
but this town is a place we call home
some says it's a black hole
but they'll never know

I Love The Night, Flying Over These City Lights

Happy black Friday everyone. I still don't see how you could eat so much the night before and get up super early in the morning to shop. Shopping is already the most annoying thing to do on the planet but then to have to do it in the morning? No thanks. I've done it once and it was a god awful experience. No discount is better than me sleeping. The fact it gets completely dark by 5:30pm is pretty depressing. I hate fixed do. It's a lot more challenging than I anticipated and it's been really screwing with me. But time is key. I made a decision the other day that I simply can not do the Brouwer Sonata next semester. The piece is so beastly and to have to learn it, perfect it, and understand that music within a semester is simply asking too much of me. So I'm pushing it back to the summer and am going to learn Brouwers arrangement of La Muerte Del Angel by Astor Piazzolla like I had originally planned. I don't see it as being a wuss or anything. I have tons of challenging pieces that aren't even close to being perfected. So I can't just go nuts learning super hard pieces. I'm no superman...

So with money being tight, I was in a heavy debate whether or not I should see Thrice and Polar Bear Club for $20. After looking at how much money I have spent/have left and talking to my mommy about it, I decided it was ok, financially, to go. It was at the Regency Ballroom which is a HUGE venue. I pay for my ticket and can already here Polar Bear Club playing. All I can think is "I'm gunna run through those doors and just run for the pit." And so I get my ticket, burst through the double doors, and immediately stop in my tracks. A) because the venue was fucking huge and B) because it was like I walked into a room full of zombies. NO ONE was moving. I made my way up close and pissed off a bunch of people in the process. I don't get why people get pissy if they are just standing around. I saw so many guys right behind their girlfriends getting pissed if anyone came near them which is probably my biggest pet peeve at shows. If your clingy girlfriend can't hack getting hit at shows, then don't bring her. No one was moving. I heard comments like "ugh, this sucks. It's so loud." It was kind of a reminder of how not really popular Polar Bear Club is and how not only fans of punk rock enjoy Thrice. The next band, Dear Hunter came on and my jaw dropped because of how bad they were. I looked around and people were actually enjoying it. I looked up to the upper deck on the venue and people were SITTING. Fucking mothers and fathers were sitting/waiting for the show to end cause they had kids attending. I heard comments like "DUDE THIS IS SO EPIC" "MAN THEY ARE AMAZING!" I hated the feeling. I have never felt so out of place. Thrice was setting up and I heard so many "I'm guna yell Deadbolt!" "DUDE WHAT IF THEY PLAY T&C?!" "What's that album before artist??" comments that made me want to throw up. Really, San Francisco? Are you kids really this lame at shows?

This was the first time seeing Thrice alone. So I had no one to talk to about how stoked I was which was kinda shitty. But fuck, once they got on stage my heart started racing with excitement. Teppei wasn't there though. Which was a true disappointment because he is the heart of the band. But the guitarist from Dear Hunter filled in well. The set was going so smoothly. A very nice mix of Artist, Vheissu, Alchemy and Beggars. Of course, they played Deadbolt and the crowd went fucking nuts. The pits were outstanding. I got tossed around like a rag doll just as I usually do. Being in a pit is such an intense experience. Everything moves so fast. In the matter of 3 seconds, you get hit in from so many different angles. They got to their slower part of the set and I saw this couple singing Beggars, the song, to each other. I mean, I hate to sound like a wuss or something, but I WANT THAT SO BAD. I want to have a girlfriend I can sing my favorite songs with too! That would rule! But then that would involve getting a girlfriend and that wouldn't rule. So Beggars is playing and of course I'm super into it. I was super stoked they were playing it because it's such a great song. I'm obviously loving it as they are playing, but when they got to the outro, I think my life changed. And I know if my brother Randy is reading this, he'll say I'm stupid for loving a band this much, but I take music into such high regard. Anyway, in the album version, it's just an isntrumental outro. But live, Dustin was screaming his lungs out and it just floored me. I was in shock as to what I was witnessing. It was hands down the most intense experience I've ever had while being at a show. Nearly brought me to tears. No words can describe as lame as that sounds. But wow, I was just absolutely mind blown. The rest of the show after that was almost pointless because there was no way they'd top Beggars. Again, I'm not over-exaggerating, but that was one of the most intense/emotional/SPIRITUAL experience I've have EVER had at a show. The song went like this

Thrice-Beggars

Tell me what can you claim? Not a thing - not your name!
Tell me if you can recall just one thing,
That’s not a gift in this life?

Stand Up and Be Counted If You Can't Live Without It

You ever see a picture that just completely defines your year? And then naturally, you think about the song that just ruled your year? Sure, I'm in the middle of shooting for a film festival, but at the time of this picture, I was running on essentially no sleep for two days yet I was still able to just lean back, smile, and enjoy life. Something I never really got to do in 2008. Being a happy person rules.



It’s all in me but I can’t get the right words out,
Been trying to so long that I forgot what I believe,
The longer I go without it the more it brings me down,
The feeling that I’ve lost all that I’m made of,
What if I can’t get it back?
From deep inside and through your eyes it is incredible,
To feel it coming!
The dwelling doubt subsides and all is calm,
But still the pages long for more,
Tell me I don’t stand a chance in vein,
To believe all I’ve witnessed every killing breath,
Until we love ourselves,
Only then will this story be fit to tell,
Cause if in awe we cant portray its rightful meaning we will stay,
Of war and peace,
The light of one warm embrace,
Don’t let it become your worst enemy,
Go run and tell of what you’ve seen,
Believe it isn’t right,
Tell me it’s not for real,
Life as we made it…



And don't think I've forgotten. It was on the night of November 20th, 2004, that Kayla lost her life. I'll never forget sitting at my friend Arielle's birthday party with a bunch of friends when a girl in the grade below us broke the news. I still remember every minute as if it was yesterday. I had no idea what to do with myself. I was awarded her music scholarship my senior year of high school and would like to think I've honored it quite well thus far. I was never too into Thursday, but I know it was her favorite band. This is pretty much the only song I ever got into so I'll post it. God this song makes me miss high school so much.

Cold Happens All The Time lyrics

Thursday-War All The Time Video - Cold Happens All The Time Music Videos

Music Videos by VideoCure

Now your eyes are a sign on the edge of town
They offer a welcome, when you are leaving

R.I.P. Kayla.

Looking Back On Life, Does Your Past Still Keep You Up At Night?

In ways you could have predicted this post coming with the high level of bitching I do about my theory and musicianship teacher. Last week in class, I was giving my percussionist friend a hard time because he was struggling with sight reading rhythms. My friend Ari in front of me overheard and says, "Ya know, it's great to have Raz because he makes you want to do better cause you know if you don't he'll give you crap about it" out loud to the class. My teacher then responds in a light hearted way saying "Yeah well he's just a son of a bitch like that." Sarcastic words were exchanged between me and him. But after Friday, I knew that I wanted to email him and tell him 100% how I felt because while I don't want to like him, I knew I had to change my work ethic because I was missing class and hardly doing my work just to spite him(productive, huh?). Well Monday comes along and I have a note in my box saying I will be kicked out of class if I continue my attitude. So because I can't see him Tuesdays and I had my Unit Exam on Wednesday, I decided to email him. I expressed how I don't respect him as a teacher or person but that I would change my work ethic to get my grade up. That's youth?


Usually before I leave to school or out or just anywhere I put my ihome on shuffle so that when I get back, hopefully a really kick ass song will be playing and it'll make me happy. Today before I left school to go practice, I put it on shuffle and Yellowcard's "Starstruck" came on. DANG. 2003! It gave me such a huge rush of freshman year of high school. I was so heavily into pop punk back in those days. I still do listen to pop punk these days but it's a bit different then than it is now. Remember Much The Same? Such a solid melodic punk band that ruled my senior year of high school. Well they broke up that year actually and the drummer plus a member of Break The Silence and a member of Counterpunch formed a band called Unit 91. They just released an EP. By no means is it original but it just really clicks with me. I listened to a few songs back in summer of 2008 when I went to Colorado so there are some fantastic memories attatched to it. Wow what an amazing trip Colorado was. It reminds me so much of pop punk in the early 00's and I think the reason I like it so much may be because it makes me feel 13/14 years old again.

I just recently posted on how I was actually content with my guitar playing. That has completely gone to hell. There have been times this past week where I have serious doubts about myself. My doubts were so high that I've hardly been practicing. It's just frustrating to go into your lessons and get reminded(not verbally) on how undeveloped you are and just how...not good you really are. Larry has never said anything close to that but some of things he says just blow my mind and certain techniques are extremely hard. No one understands just how hard it is to excel in your instrument or just to comprehend music. Getting to that next level is such a mind fuck and you really just have no idea how to handle it except question yourself. Never have I been challenged like this. It's only been 3 months. It's hard to put into words just what exactly is going through my head. But more than ever, music IS my life. Today I decided to turn everything around and got in a really good amount of practice. In order to get a nice 5 hour practice session going, I switched practice locations around the school every hour. The best was the last one where I around 5:30pm when the sun was setting and I was sitting in the practice room facing the window. San Francisco has such great weather. Every day is 60's and every night is 50's. I bitch about wanting diversity but I know I'm going to miss it when I get back home to Texas.

I almost got jumped the other week when walking by myself. I had a insane adventure on Halloween night in the city of San Francisco. I was in a cab home with some friends talking the cab driver about football and once he found out I was from South Texas he swirved to the curb and told me to get the fuck out of his car. He said it with a straight face but then laughed and said he was joking. I've probably said this a few times, but nights out here are so much different than nights out in Corpus. You just NEVER know what's going to happen. God I'm so fucking glad I got out of that city. Love it, but couldn't stand another month in it. One of my really good girl friends moved to LA so hopefully she'll be here to visit soon. Living on my own has made me get tons of great ideas on how to save money and conserve food or dishes. I'm getting really good at ping pong. I drink an amazing amount of water these days. I also drink Budweiser and Pabst Blue Ribbon pretty much exclusively these days. While I have my mental struggles, life is just absolutely amazing and there's no school I'd rather be at. Didn't I mention something about a kick ass melodic punk band? Ok this is probably the most awkward video I post. I debated about posting it but it's the only one that has the album version of my favorite song off the album. Warning: CHEESY lyrics.


Much The Same-What I Know

And I hate the thought of who I am without you
And someday I'll learn to get by on my own
I became a better man around you
And that's one thing you should know
'Cause I know

If You Were Here, I'd Admit That I'm An Asshole. But Now It's Over and I Can' Stay Sober.

That 70's show is a show that I really enjoyed watching years ago but I try to steer clear of it. Do I really remind you of Eric Foreman from That 70's show? I don't know how many times people have told me that. It was all sort of ironic that my friend Oneida texted me saying that just that because I had JUST gotten the new David Bazan album AND That 70's Show was on mute at the time of the text. Who's David Bazan? Well, maybe if you read this blog more you'd remember I wrote a mini paragraph about him to set up the video I posted on this entry. But anyway, he's the singer of Pedro The Lion. What does that matter? Well, in the fall of 2006, I would HEAVILY listen to Pedro The Lion and would HEAVILY go over to a house and watch That 70's show. And here I am, near exactly 3 years later, in a COMPLETELY different world, still listening to David Bazan's music. Kinda nifty, huh? No? Yeah, I could see why that might not seem like a big deal cause artist come out with new music and life does go on, but I can't express to you how thick of nostalgia it carries and how just...right? October and Pedro The Lion/David Bazan are. His new album is fantastic. It's pretty much the same exact thing as Pedro The Lion but he dropped the name and just made it David Bazan. Only been listening to it for a few days so I don't have any clear favorites just yet but I do enjoy the less happy. I dislike the songs that kind of sound like Keep Swinging and prefer the songs that sound more like Arizona and Transcontinental.

One thing that's been on my mind lately is, "Wow. My program is outstanding. But am I learning these things to soon?" I'm playing some incredibly pieces right now but I'm worried I won't be playing them next year or the year after that. I mentioned a month or so ago that I would be playing Agustin Barrios Mangore's Un Sueno En La Floresta. No longer! I decided to finally, after, 4 years of having the music and loving the piece, to do Agustin Barrios Mangore's Variation on a Theme of Tarrega: Lagrima Variations. It involves the theme(obviously), slurs, a little thirdsy(not a word) part, artificial harmonics, tremelo, arpeggios, and classic Barrios shredding. I have never heard anyone play it and I've never met anyone else that knows the piece besides me and the guy I discovered it with. So I'm quite excited to be playing it. I start the Brouwer Sonata when I return from winter break. Me and Larry started working on the Grand Overture. A bittersweet bummer. Why? Well now I have to actually play it right. It really does piss me off on how bad of a teacher Mr. Hii was. How did he miss so many bad parts about my playing this piece? And that's because he was "giving me his all"? We're actually analyzing the piece and discussing how I should play this part this way because I play that part another way and just TONS and TONS of different things. Larry is just filled with endless great ideas and it really just blows my mind. I have so much music to be playing these days and I absolutely love it.

Last week someone on punknews posted an add for joining his band. Ever since he posted that I've been super super super ancy to join a band and play music. I posted an add on Craigs List saying I was available to join/start a band. Preferably join. I got a few responses. 2 from really really really bad bands. 1 from some old dude playing punk music. Then one from a 26 year old guy who apparantley likes the bands I've listed as inspirations, is a fan of punknews and plays guitar. That sounds awesome but at the same time, it's craigs list and I have that constant paranoya of it being a scam. Haven't responded to him yet. But man, I just want to branch out. I live in San Francisco, California, one of the biggest punk scenes in the country. It'd be criminal if I wasn't more involved. I don't care what kind of punk. I'll play pop punk, skate punk, beard punk, Bad Astronaut esque rock, ANYTHING. Only bad thing about me being in or starting a band is that I'm not in it for trying to make it big. I just want to casually play a few shows a month and just have a good time. I also don't even have the equipment to play a show so I'm not really that attractive of a band member.

Music rotation is great right now. I've got Thrice-Beggars, Swellers-Ups and Downsizing, Strike Anywhere-Iron Front, Hot Water Music-Never Ender, and David Bazan-Curse Your Branches. This is the first time I ever have a Strike Anywhere song in rotation. I'd always just hear a few songs off one of their albums and never got too into it so this change is nice. This is the second Hot Water Music album I put into a full rotation and since they have so many, I'm going to have at least one of their albums in rotation pretty much until the summer. And I've already expressed my feelings for Thrice, Swellers and David Bazan. All that talk of David Bazan would only make it fitting to post a video of him. Again, I really really really highly recommend you listen to Pedro The Lion and or this new David Bazan release. Really really mellow, great story telling songs. This video doesn't really do the album justice because he doesn't really use an acoustic guitar, and everything is very electronic.


Pedro The Lion-Curse Your Branches

Oh, falling leaves should curse their branches
For not letting them decide where they should fall
And not letting them refuse to fall at all

I'm Not Gunna Watch You Kill Yourself To Live

I DARE you to try not to think of The Grinch theme song while looking at this picture. I should photoshop a santa hat and paint his face green and we would be the perfect part. The dashing fellow you're looking at is Roland Dyens. A current guitar composer/performer and a lock to be remembered for the remainder of time. He gave a master class for us last Thursday and a concert on Friday. Out of the two, I was more impressed with the masterclass. Dyens is a very soft spoken, humorous guy. And it wasn't even in the whole "Oh man he's so famous so everything that comes out of his mouth is hilarious" kind of way. Just a funny dude. His teaching was incredible. So so so musical. I wish I could have played for him but I had nothing to play for him at the time. In intermission, we all went outside and he smoked a cigarette with the other guitar players. I was apart of the circle but didn't smoke but DAMN if there were ever a time I wanted to smoke a cigarette it was right there and then. Are you kidding me? Hanging outside of school and talking with Roland Dyens? Unreal. Probably the main thing I love about Dyens is that he is so musical. Why? Well, being a composer gives you such an edge over the rest of the performers. Being a composer gives you a different mindset. You think about structure more than you think about how technical and accurate your playing is. But that was all on youtube videos. Me and about 6 other guitar players caught the 9 to the Mission and gotta tell you, for Roland Dyens, the venue was kinda rough. Not super nice and if it's in the Mission, you gotta watch your back. The concert started out with about a 6 or 7 minute improvisation which I thought was maybe one of the better parts to the night. After that, he did a few compositions of his own along with some Villa Lobos. Gotta tell you man, I wasn't very impressed. Everything of his I had previously seen wasn't living up to this. He was kind of messy and his sound didn't carry very far. His musical ideas that I love so much were there but I just wasn't blown away like I thought I should have been. Highlights were when he played his arrangement of Chopin's Valse Op. 69 No. 2 and the fact he didn't play Tango En Skai.

It was a cold, rainy day on October 13th. But I knew I absolutely had to go to this show. Heartsounds, The Riot Before, Living With Lions and A Wilhelm Scream. Mapquest is dumb. I got directions and it told me to go all over the place and really all I had to do was take 9th street past a few intersections. So I knew that walking over there wouldn't be an issue. But walking back from the Mission is really sketchy. The show started off with Heartsounds playing their 3rd show ever. It showed. They messed up a good number of times and it was so sloppy. But OH MAN, Laura Nichol is 10x better looking in person. Especially with that AWS tattoo. But the songs they did pull off were fantastic. The Riot Before came on. I think I listened to them about 2 years ago and wasn't crazy about them. But they put on a hell of a live show. Really emotional. Really intense. Loved it and I want to start regularly listening to them now. Living With Lions was kind of cheesy live. I can't exactly explain why but that's the first thing I thought of. I enjoyed it though. I was texting a few friends from SF whether or not I would die on my walk back home at 12:30am. Most of them responded with "Are you with friends? Oh...no? Well...uh...walk in well lit areas." Then a friend in Oakland told me there was an Earthquake there and that we would later get it. So here I am thinking, "Great. Not only am I going to get jumped but the fucking earth is going to split beneath me." But worrying about that came later. A Wilhelm Scream was about to go on. This would be the first time I see AWS live without Joe which was kinda depressing. And it was the first I've seen them where there were a TON of people there. Amazing set. I was right in the face of Bri and Nuno the entire night. I accidently punched Bri's bass. I sang into the mic 1000 times. I 100% have never gotten more into a show than I did that night. Screamed my damn lungs out. Amazing time. Mike gave me a set list. I went up to Nuno and told him I'm from South Texas and he then asked "So yeh used to go to Neeer Miss shows, huh?" And I said yes and he then hugged me. While it was completely gross, it was kick ass. The walk home was rough. Luckily I had my black jacket and black beanie so NO ONE was gunna mess with me. It was really creepy when cars would just slowly drive by you and no one else was on the street. But it was only about a 20-25 minute walk so it went by really fast. Great night.

I'm no longer in a guitar funk. I actually feel decent for now. My right hand seems to be getting better at getting in position for good tone. Practicing a lot of technique is so rewarding. I have the Generalife down but it with out any power. Bach is sounding decent. But obviously there's a long way to go. Life here is still great as well. The weather is always beautiful. I started laughing to myself the other day at how used to this low 60's high 50's with sunny skies weather I am. I'm sure back in Texas it's awful. You can't walk 10 minutes down the street with out hearing a loud and obnoxious siren. School is great for the most part. It weirds me out at the opportunities we get here. Only thing I don't like about the school is that it's not extremely interactive. Or maybe I just haven't been here long enough to find those types of things. I mean I have tons and tons of friends here, but it's mainly because of Golden Gate Hall(my dorm). Only friends I've made outside of GGH are guitar players and a few that I've met at parties and such. The city is great as well. One not so great moment was when me and a few friends went on a 2am run to Pronto's pizza and saw the end a woman getting beat across the street. Cops showed up. She was hysterical. Weird sight. Then about 20minutes after that we saw a car run into a Walgreens. The hell? I know I probably say this a lot, but the situations I've gotten in with people here are just weird sometimes. The bonding that I've had with certain people here and the moments we've had over the period of a few months are just wild. Last night in particular was such a self defining moment for me. It's crazy to see how you react to people who do things you never thought they would do in a million years. This has nothing to do with music. BUT THIS DOES. Let's talk about senior year. Let's talk about senior party. Let's talk about driving for the first time. Let's talk about losing it. Let's talk about 2007. Let's talk about my favorite quote(there's not many since I don't really care for quotes). Let's talk about legitimacy. Let's talk about FEELINGS. My 3rd favorite album of all time.

Lagwagon-Gun In Your Hand

Look, I can appreciate this. I was young too, I felt just like you. Hated authority, hated all my bosses, thought they were full of shit. Look, it's like they say, if you're not a rebel by the age of 20, you got no heart, but if you haven't turned establishment by 30, you've got no brains. Because there are no story-book romances, no fairy-tale endings. So before you run out and change the world, ask yourself, "What do you really want?"